I went to my first encounter about 2 years I would say, I was saved and loved it. Even then, I never stood firm in my faith. I was just a bouncing ball back and forth. I went through a lot this past year, being my senior year. I also felt furthest from God than I had ever been. My family which had fallen apart since before began to become more dysfunctional, trying to find a way out - I turned to drugs and alcohol. Partying had become an every weekend thing, and sadly the only thing i looked forward to at the end of the week. I began to turn cold never showing feelings. As the school year came to an end, I still had no idea what to do for school. I was lost & confused. I came to stay with my sister in Bradenton. Began attending church, yet still something was missing. She invited me to camp, and I accepted.
Before leaving, I prayed for God to change me within that week. To not let me leave an unchanged person. I asked Him where He was when I needed him most.
The first couple of days were great. The Holy Spirit was present and touching us all. Then we had Prophet Ben come in and I kept asking God why he hadn't used him to speak to me. I needed to hear something before I left this camp! Friday came around and I realized it was the last day and it was my time. Sure I had been giving my all the days before, but He wanted more! I gave myself completely, I started trembling from my core and it shoke my whole body. The feeling was incredible. As I was praying I began to see clouds above the youth, above me. It was beautiful, the light blinding. I had someone come and minister to me, leaving me astonished at how the lord had used this women to speak to me. The tears were unstoppable, He told me how beautiful I was and that my self-esteem had to be worked on. That many times I had asked where he was, and was in the same place i had left him. He was waiting for me to come back to him, he knew the timing, and the timing is now. He had been waiting, because hes ready to use me. My age doesn't matter, he will place what he needs from me in my heart. My dreams are renewed in him. He will take me to the places he needs me. He told me a lot of people wouldn't understand me, but thats okay, because He does! The Lord has all control, and I have nothing to worry about. The path has been cleared, all I have to do is walk it. New doors will be open. I listened, cried, and gave thanks & he read to me Psalm 27:10 "
"Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me." I couldnt control the tears, He told me while I was standing there worshiping, He was already working in the lives of my mom and dad.
Im still in shock at just how powerful His words are. Im ready to work for an Almighty God. To live like the Princess I was born to be. A new life, A new heart, new eyes.
Im ready to get my life situated, & the devil hates it :)!!!!
God Bless<3
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