it's too late to make it right.

Excuse me, while my brain throws up a little.

You ever forgiven someone & then they do it again. & there you go right back to forgive them. & they do it again.

I mean I've been taught to forgive because I was forgiven for my mistakes!

But when the person constantly does you wrong & hurts you. It's like they do it because they know they can get away with it. But when does it become too much. Just how many chances can a heart give out....

& when this person just so happens to be the person your supposed to be looking up to....

One of those people you need most, always letting you down. time. after. time.

It gets old.

& then it seems like maybe they dont need you. Like you werent enough to make them change. I wasnt enough to keep you home, wasnt enough to make you wanna call, wasnt enough for a simple I love you.

I question your ways every day. I ask God to let me help you. To use me to come through to you.

But I cant because when I see your face, I break, all over again.

Just like when I was younger. Like when you told me I wasnt good enough & I broke.

The day you gave me the coldest hug & I broke.

breaking me piece by little piece.

But then it clicks in how can I expect so much from someone who has never been there.

How can I miss my old dad..........when you never changed.

Cold & Heartless.

For years I tell people how I forgive you. I tell myself. I tell God.

& im getting really tired dad, when are you gonna come through?

I need you more than ever and you take no notice. I seek approval from you & never get it.

What does she have that we couldnt offer at home?